Family vs. Track and Field
by Sheilicia Runnels
Growing up
in a very large family being known as M.I.A. was very rare. That’s what I
became known as by the time I turned seven in the second grade. I was six when
my mom made me start running track with my school and later with a track club.
As word spread throughout the family everyone was happy about it because I
more than likely wouldn’t turnout like most of the other kids. The one got
stayed into trouble on a daily basis and had been locked up by the time they
were ten years old. Considering I was the only grandchild left that wasn’t an
adult yet, everyone was concerned about how I was going to turn out opposed to
the others.
The day I came in my grandparents house after my first day of practice I was
so tired, but excited at the same time. In fact I was so excited I ran to my
grandpa who was asleep in his bed, that I woke him up to tell him everything.
“Daddy! Daddy! Guess what!” Sleepily he replied “Little hyper girl what do you
want? Don’t you see I’m sleep? Why can’t you wait till I wake up to tell me
something?” After he finished complaining about me waking him up he finally
rolled out of his bed to sit at the table so I could climb in his lap to tell
my story.
When he saw how excited I was he called my granny into the room to have me
tell her everything I had told him. After every sentence the three of them
would start asking a million questions like “Did you do everything?” “Was it
hard?” “Could you keep up with the other kids? Or did they leave you in their
dust?” After I answered all of their questions they all looked at each other
and laughed as if they didn’t believe anything I said. Then the phone rang, it
was my uncle calling. When my mom answered sounding like she had been laughing
he asked “What wrong with you, what’s so funny I wanna laugh too.” She told
him then gave me the phone so I could tell him my story. As soon as I finished
my story he started laughing too then made me give the phone to my grandpa. I
guess he called and told somebody in the family then they told somebody else,
because by that weekend at the get together at my aunts house everyone knew
about my story as well as my first day of practice.
At my first track meet I had more fans than any one else competing in the
meet. My family members who came out to support me came in by the dozens to
watch me run. Originally there was a certain amount of space provided for each
team but since my team had so many people in the stands, we used up the empty
spaces in other team areas. The rest of my team mates were so excited because
of all the people we had there to support us, although I knew that they were
really my fan club, I agreed. I guess since we had a lot of people in the
stands along with a huge team everyone we raced was intimidated or we were
just that good. All of our relays won their races and I even won one of my
individuals and placed second in the other. During all of my races all I could
hear was “GOO SHA-LEE-SHE-UUUH!!” from the time the gun went off until I
crossed the finish line.
When I was done for the day, everyone made me pose to take pictures while
holding up my 2 blue ribbons and one red ribbon. As soon as the paparazzi left
me alone we immediately went to get something to eat since we had been there
all day long. Unfortunately that was one of the only meets I had with that
much support who weren’t other parents of the teams.
Later that year, a coach who had a youth track club within U.S.A track and
field began talking to my mom about joining his team. I believe he became
interested because I was so young and had potential as the other coaches said.
After each conversation my mom would say: “So what do you think?” I’d just
look at her and say: ”Do I look like I was listening to anything he said? He
was talking to you not me.” At the time my smart mouth amused her so she would
brush it off and say I should have been listening. To this day I still have a
problem with listening, especially when not being spoken to.
The first Monday we were off for spring break my mom told me to get dressed
for practice at around five. I looked her with the ugliest face and asked “For
what? We didn’t have school so that means we don’t have practice. So what am I
getting dressed for?” She must have gotten irritated by me asking questions or
my attitude. So, she went to my closet got some sweats out and threw them at
me then said “Put them on and shut up” then she walked out the room followed
by a loud “AND HURRY UP!” Me being my mamas child I got a attitude right back
and took my sweet precious time putting on my clothes. Then walked out of my
room as slow as my skinny little legs could move. She was so mad she just
stared at me with an evil eye and I pretended like I didn’t even notice.
After I got in the car she sped off down the street to my aunt’s house to get
her and my two cousins, who were standing outside waiting when we pulled up to
there house. When they got in I noticed they had on sweats too. As usual my
aunt got in the car running her mouth, talking loud enough for all of Oakland
and Berkeley to hear, with some outrageously over exaggerated story to tell.
As we drove down Martin Luther King I noticed she didn’t get on the freeway to
go to my school. Five minutes later we were pulling into the parking lot of
Berkeley High and I saw a big red track that had people in every direction
even on the field.
As soon as we walked through the gate between the gym and bleachers, I noticed
the coach from my track meets that my mom had been talking to. He looked happy
to see all of us, especially when he yelled “HEY EDIE! It’s about time yall
got here! I told you five thirty its almost six fifteen. What were you doing
kicking back watching the sun go down?” With an attitude in her voice she said
“No, we were waiting on her while she was slow poking around.” As soon as she
said that all eyes were on me, even people I didn’t know were looking at me.
So I defended myself by saying “She didn’t tell me that I was coming here I
thought I was going to my practice at school. By the way who are you?”
Simultaneously everyone started laughing extremely loud and hard as if they
had heard the funniest joke of their lives.
He then introduced himself as Tony Williams, coach and founder of Tony
Williams Track and Cross Country Club. Afterwards he introduced me to the rest
of the people who were on the team. It was funny to me and how all of us had
names that were very.. Original. The girls were Zinzi, Zetra, Jameelah, Lolli,
Marteika and of course myself. The boys were Chemon and Jamel, all very
uncommon, except Jameelah. That day of practice was the hardest practice of my
life, at that point. Unfortunately everyone else thought it was kind of easy.
Basically the bad and the ugly were soon to come along with the crying and the
pain of getting in shape.
Over the next two years I stayed with that same team. From the month I had
joined, every weekend we had a track meet that lasted all day Saturday and
Sunday. Those were the days we used to spend with my family, but since we
couldn’t be there, my mom and I became separated from everyone else. At first
I didn’t really care because we were having fun at the meets running around
with the kids from the other teams. Since we were elite and were part of a
national association we traveled to another state almost every other weekend.
Every week it seemed as if we made new friends from Texas or L.A. My mom also
didn’t mind because everything was already paid for except food. I would take
that over a get together any day.
My eldest aunt began to call on Friday nights to see if we were going to come
to what ever event or gathering was planned for that weekend. Eventually she
caught on to the pattern and stopped calling. One Sunday night when we
stumbled into my grandparents house after a meet my grandpa said, “You know
everybody been talkin about yall.” My mom looked at him and said “ What you
mean they talkin’ bout us?” He replied “ They saying that you got that girl in
that track and you act like you done forgot about the people who was here
before you got her involved in that mess.”
My mom got upset and yelled “If they have a problem with me and what I’m doing
why can‘t they just come to me and say it to my face?” My grandpa got mad and
looked at her as if she was some kind of strange creature, and said “Who is
you raisin’ yo’ voice at? I’m telling you. That’s why they didn’t tell you.”
She opened her mouth to say yell back. Then he cut her off and said “Now say
something else smart.” I couldn’t help but laugh. Considering the fact she
would punk me the same way.
There were also a lot more problems the were constantly occurring as time went
by with the team. My mom had gotten to the point where she was tired of even
looking at Tony’s face, so she was already looking for a new team for me to
join. Some of the other parents were doing the same for some of my other
teammates. Since we wanted to stay together we started our own team. The team,
only lasted a year, then we moved on and went our separate ways.
Around the time I turned nine, I joined another team called Westside Kickers
out of west Oakland. My first day of practice my mom got me there extra early.
As the team began to arrive they all just looked at me and kept walking. When
I saw them I looked at my mom and asked very quietly almost a whisper “Why are
they all so big?” “And where are the all the girls?” She looked around and
looked back at me and said “You are the girl.” then laughed like there was
something funny. Not only was I the only girl, I was the youngest on the team
by five years.
Since the coach said for us to be at the track of McClymonds High at five
o’clock we walked over to the corner where the rest of the team were beginning
to warm up. Since I didn’t know anybody I jus stood against the fence and
waited for the coach. One of boys put two and two together and figured I was
there to join the team, so he called out to me. “AY! Yo lil’ mama, who you
waitin‘ for? Coach White?” I looked over to him and yelled back “Yea! You know
him?” They all looked at each other and said in unison “YEA!! We’re the team!”
Even though I already knew that I put one hand up at them and put the other on
my chest and softly said “My bad, I didn’t know that. Ya’ll act like I’m some
kind of psychic or something.” Once again everybody starts laughing. Then I
walked over to where they were and they introduced themselves. As the list of
names went on I began to recognize them from the meets when the announcer
would scream “AND IT’S WEST- SIIDE!! WITH A NEW MEET RECORD!!” my team used to
copy him because he said it like ice cube said it on the radio.
After they all introduced themselves it was my turn. “Well since everybody
done told me their name, mines is Sheilicia.” One of the boys named Devin said
in disbelief “Wait a minute yo name is what?” I looked at him and said “Did I
stutter? Sha-lee-sha, you got it now?” Everybody looked at him and started
laughing, then one dude yelled “SMASHERS!”
Then I heard a deep voice say “ Aww man she got a smart mouth just like her
mama” When I turned around I saw a short dark-skinned man who was as dark as
the black on his necklace with the colors of Africa on it, with glasses and
some red and black sweats with red and black Nikes. Everyone began to laugh
except me and my mom at the comment. Then he said “See, she even got serious
from that remark just like her mama. Look at both of their faces!” I looked at
her, she looked at me and we had the exact same facial expression on our
faces. We both couldn’t help but to laugh because it was a comment we had
heard quite often from those who know us.
He then reached out to shake my hand and said “You must be Sheilicia, what’s
good wit you I’m Coach White” I just looked at him, and as soon as I opened my
mouth, Devin said “ Back up she finna say something smart!” Just so I could
prove him wrong I didn’t say anything and shook his hand. Over the next few
weeks a couple more boys joined the team and I wasn’t the only person my age
anymore. But I was still the only girl.
After being on this team for a few months I began to travel to more big meets
across the state but not across the country. Of course my family was a lot
happier because I was always around. At the same time they were still
unsatisfied because my grades had began to fall and I was very “lazy”. Since
everyday I had practice, except Fridays, and every Saturday and Sunday were
track meets which lasted all day I was always tired. Most people say you had
all night to sleep after the meets but in reality I didn’t. they would start
at like 10 in the morning and last until 9 or ten at night. After we took down
our tarps, gathered all of the blankets and coolers, found all of the sweat
suits, loaded everything into the cars, and cleaned up our area it was thirty
minutes later. Since we ran all day until the last events we couldn’t eat all
day except little snacks so we would have to stop at a Restaurant to eat. Just
imagine how long that took, I’ll give you an example. We went to Denny’s with
a party of 12 athletes and 10 parents. On top of us having a big group we had
to wait 20mins to be seated, 10mins to order once seated. Then, almost an hour
to get our food, all because other teams from the meet were eating there as
well. There were many times where I fell asleep at the table waiting for food.
When everyone was finished eating we would most likely have a two to three
hour drive home. As my mom and I stepped in the door of our rooms it would be
well after one o’clock. Then I would have to take a shower and go to bed to be
at school the next morning at eight. But I had to be up by six thirty.
Therefore if you did the math I was working sixteen hour days and sleeping
five hours at night over the weekend. Sadly, practice still started at four
thirty on Monday as well. So basically I didn’t get enough rest unless I got a
whole day to just sleep, or at least sleep in.
Since it was a regular thing my aunts and uncles were all against my running
track any longer. They believed my mom was the whole reason I was out at all
hours of the night at first. So, they used to just fuss about her staying out
with her friends late at night knowing I needed to be in bed. Then they found
out it wasn’t all her they complained about track. Almost every day they would
call each other and gossip about everything. During their conversations they
came up with every reason in the book as to why I didn’t need to run track.
One day my aunt called from Sacramento telling me about the gossip going
around the family. She then asked “Why are you running track?” I answered, “At
first my mom made me run, after a while I got used to it. Then I began to have
fun, and almost all of the friends I still keep in touch with run track.” I
thought she would leave me alone after that but she decided she wanted to try
to persuade me into believing I didn’t need to run. “There is no reason for
you to be running track, there are other sports for you to play. I could
understand if you were fat or something and she was trying to make you lose
weight. But you are far from that case.” Since I was aware of her being the
spokesperson for everyone, I asked “Can you tell everybody else not to call me
talking about track since I‘ve already talked to you?” After an awkward moment
of silence she replied, “I was going to try and make up an excuse so you
wouldn‘t think I talk to everyone, but you‘d know I was telling a story. So
yea, I‘ll tell everyone everything you told me then tell them not to call you
about that.” Relieved that she didn’t say anything stupid or just plain NO! I
told her thank you and made up a reason for me to call her back later, but
never did.
A few years had passed since everyone’s complaining about me running, thank
goodness. I had changed teams for the last time, had all good grades (except
English), we traveled literally every other weekend, and my family was happy.
Then the unthinkable happened.
During the end of my eighth grade year, while running in a race at Cal my knee
made a loud and painful POP! When I crossed the finish line seconds later my
entire right knee was huge compared to my left. It hurt so bad I fell to the
track holding my knee and screamed. An official ran over to me and yelled
“Sweetie what’s wrong? Are you ok?” When she said that I almost wanted to take
off my spike and slap across the face with it. Why would you ask me what’s
wrong if I’m holding my knee whining it hurts? And then ask me if I’m ok when
everybody in the stadium heard me scream and witnessed me hitting the ground?!
Is it just me or was that as stupid as stupid could get?. I think the only
reason I didn‘t is because I was in too much pain to even move at that moment.
It hurt so bad I couldn’t walk off of the track. When the officials got me to
the field I was crying so hard I couldn’t hear anything they were asking me.
About a minute later I heard my coach asking me “what did you do now?” Then
the trainer saying “Sheilicia hold this ice on your knee so the inflammation
can go down” At the same time my mom is trying to ask me if I need to go to
the doctor. Once again I get another dumb question so, I just didn’t answer
any of them.
The following day I went with my teammate who was now complaining about her
knee hurting too, to a sports doctor in Palo Alto. He ordered both of us an
MRI for both knees for the very next morning. That next morning at four
o’clock in the morning her dad came in the room telling us to get up. We were
highly upset because it was still dark outside and we had to wake up to go get
in a machine that takes pictures. By four forty-five we were on our way to
Hayward from Hercules for an appointment at five fifteen. When we had both
been through the loud clicking and rumbling of the machine we had thirty
minutes to get to school.
When we went back to the doctor he said “Well I have good news and bad news
for the both of you. So, which would you like first?” We both agreed to get
the bad and the ugly out of the way first. He then said “Welp, Ms. Runnels you
have wear and tear on both of your knees one far worse than the other. And you
also have a small cist right beneath your knee cap. Therefore you won‘t be
running for a while and you may have to get surgery, but I don‘t think so if
you stay off of it.” He also said something else but I can’t remember , bad
memory. He took a deep breath and said “But the good news is you won‘t have to
lose the leg and you can still walk, but with a limp. Oh, yes and I can also
be corrected. Look on the bright side you won‘t have to go to practice for a
while.” Little did he know I had already concluded that.
When my mom told my grandmother what the doctor said, it was like news on
Brittany Spears. Everybody knew about it by the next morning. Now not only
didn’t they want me to run anymore, they were mad my mom ’let’ me get hurt
that bad.
Over the course of the next year I was in physical therapy and rehab. I
couldn’t run but I still stayed in shape and worked almost as hard as I would
have at track practice. By the beginning of my sophomore year I was trying to
go to practice. Eventually I was able to run through the pain and train with
the rest of the team. When we told my family I was back running, half of them
were happy because I really wanted to run. While the other half were irritated
and didn’t want to hear anything about it. My eldest aunt was so mad she said
“You and your mama are so stupid! Why would you get hurt running and then you
think you‘re healed and go right back to doing the exact same thing that had
you moving like a old woman in the first place?!” Since I couldn’t hold my
tongue anymore I said “You sure are doing a lot of complaining but I don‘t see
any of your kids doing anything with themselves but sitting around looking
stupid. And do you plan on paying for me to go to college because in track I
can get a scholarship and that’s a free education on my part while you
constantly complainin’ and getting on my last nerve” She was so mad she hung
up in my face and I could care less. I was quite relieved because I didn’t
have to hear her mouth anymore.
So the season went on and continued to train hard so we could get to the state
championships and win. Then once again something else happens to me. At
practice it was so cold outside every night I had gotten sick. Every day my
mom would make me come to practice saying “if you go to practice you can run
the cold out of your body.” Since I didn’t want to argue with her I went and
did the best I could without dying on the track. When we were almost done for
the night my heart began to pound and actually hurt. I laid down on the ground
holding my chest, once it slowed down I got up and went straight to the car.
The next morning I went to the doctor met with a cardiologist. He ran several
tests and asked twenty billion questions about me, my mom and my family both
on my moms side and my dad’s side. After he gave me an EKG, he concluded I had
severe palpitations and he doesn’t know what causes them. This was the last
and final straw for everyone, including me. Since heart disease runs in my
family I was kind of spooked and actually listened to the family for once when
they said for me not to run. For the first time in nine years they were
satisfied with my decision, which was listening to them. Basically they won
this time around.
Over the summer of that very same year I went to a few other cardiologists for
second and third opinions. The both of them told me to continue running and if
I gets worse to stop. So of course I kept running, especially since my mom
wouldn’t let me do anything but sit in the house, And that was not the
business.
As of today my family still thinks I’m not running any more. They are going to
be in for a big surprise when track season starts in February.